failure...

been some time since i blog..think no one will visit this blog anymore..but i hope a certain special someone will read it..

last nite was terrible. i have been so useless in protecting my dear one.. caused hurt and disappointment to her.. now i cant contact her.. cant talk to her.. cant see her.. what am i to do? i have to be strong..but the anxiety in me is hurting me too.. we have been together for 3 years.. that aint a short time together.. there have been lots of happy moments.. lots of crazy laughter.. i cant imagine doing all the things we have done together with anyone else anymore..

maybe this is again a weakness.. again too much dependence on another individual.. i miss her.. i truly miss her alot..